passing time

So it all started this week when I have been laying in bed sick with the flu. As the week went on boredom set in, and left me with my own memories. always a scary thought lol. But its funny I was looking over old pics and letters and myspace posts and it came to me how short life really is, and how fast time really does fly. I remember when I was little thinking about were I would be now and Im not anywhere close to where I thought I would be. But in some ways im much better off. for example I never thought I would be active in the church or live in boise id for that matter, but not knowing is kind of what makes life great.
Its so funny to look back a the little problems I had in the past and I just remember thinking my life could not go on lol. but I always pulled through and look back thinking man that was dumb. but I guess thats what happens when your a mellow dramatic person lol. the one thing about the past that does make me sad is the friendships that are made and lost. So my advice to you is take the little memories well you can, and try not to focus on the crisis and hand. Because I think its the little things stringed together that make up for all the pain feel.

colgate country showdown

Alright once again I went for a shot at the colgate country showdown. This has been a crazy few week preparing for the showdown. I couldnt deside on the song till right before. I endend up changing my song three times, but in the end I went with settling. It wasnt worth all the stress I built up. I always freak out when it is not needed. I guess thats the life of a spazie lol. The comptetion was amazing. I dint make the top 5 like last year, but im ok with that now. I am just thankful I had my amazing family their to keep my calm. there tactics are to yell "callie stop it, your being silly" wich is very true, if you know me and the stuff that comes out of my mouth lol its kind of silly. But after we went as a family to ride rides and I won a fish, that I named heseckia. So i guess I cant say I dint win anything lol. We had to fight for my fish. Dang cheap carnies. The funniest and most horrible part of the night was jayden. My 18 month year old cousin, got ahold of the hand sanitizer that has 65% ach... so after calling, and making sure he was ok we had a drunk baby on are hands. Its was sad, but funny he had a really good night. As well as me all in all only being a fish winner. lol I must be really growing up I dont really seem to care about the little things in life as much as I used too. I am just happy My AMAZING family was their to support me like always. THANKS GUYS! P.s. im really sorry I dont know why but spell check never works on this, and spelling is not one of my gifts lol.

McCall

McCall what can I say? well I can start By saying that the day of the trip I completely did not want to go by any means, but in the end I am glad I went. Me and five of my friends stayed at my good freind grandparents cabin. All I can say about the trip is it was very interesting. Points of the trip 1. Being super annoyed with one of the guys due to some past drama. 2. kicking everyone's but at blined man's poker. 3. getting about 3 hours of sleep due to the fact that aj kept playing tricks to scary me all night. 4. Eating smore wallfuls. 5. watching the snow races. 6. being cold and whining about it. p.s. my spell check is not working so you will have to deal with the spelling skills aka no skills. But I came to the realization on this trip, people don't care.....they dont care if I am in a bad mood or tired. People dont care its not fair to bring everyone down just cuze I am in a bad mood so my new goal is to whine less becuze i do that a lot, and try to be more positive and focus less on the callie factor. I'm not actually sure how long this will last lol. But im giving it a shot.

Peter Pan

Life is a very complicate, and delicate and if we do not take the right steps are life can turn in a whole complete direction we never intended it to. Just think every choice we make has a consequence, every action has a result. What if we made a very small simple choice that altered all life completely. That's what we do as humans we make choices and every day we have to live with them good or bad.
Some times its easy to think I want to just stop were I am, I never want to grow. life is hard some times we feel as we keep going things will only get worse, or the things in life we want can never come. But the truth is if we just stop in never land due the fear will will miss out on the good things that come with the bad. So I ask you to reach on and keep searching till you reach the second star on till morning and find your happy never land. Im still looking... somtimes I feel like I will never get there, but I have to have faith and trust that I will.....

just me

So congratulations to me... I finally figured out how to make a blog. So here you go this is a little info about me.

My name is Callie Marie Cowan. I am proud to say that I grew up in the small town of Susanville,but it has made me the person I am today. I just finished school at Shasta college. A little bit about me..... I love to sing and talk. I think way to much and care way to much about what other people think. I say the word sorry a lot. I am a very caring person, and want to make a difference in life. I'm a huge hopeless romantic, and get excited over walks in the park... ect. My goals in life are to become a dental hygienist, or a nurse... haven't decided yet. and one day go on a humanities mission. I want to be married one day in the Idaho falls temple and have a huge loving family. I currently Just moved from nor cal to Boise Idaho. Its a culture shock, but so far I love it. mmmm I love the elderly and little children. I am a very sensitive person, and love my friends and family to death. And I really really can not spell.
so a little bit of advice live life because you only get to ride the roller coaster once.
and just remember LIFE is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the number of moments that take our breath away.